is it your mind or your brain?

Sometimes I wonder why is it so difficult to forget. Most of the things we don’t want to remember remain intact – no sign of leaving our memory box. Yet we forget things we should remember, sigh!

And our minds can really pick every detail to the tiniest – minutes detail of everything. Or is it our hearts playing trick, fooling around, purposely driving us insane…

How stupid can one be, not to be able to forget something that hurts. How totally an imbecile is one to remember something obviously unworthy of any thought? Can anyone be so unintelligent to keep on thinking and hoping when the truth is out there…. With proof and evidence… what else do one need to erase thoughts about someone, anyone for the matter, who has clearly manifest his/her true colour?

I just couldn’t think wisely. Let alone painful memories….. I just wonder about this situation…. when you met someone, unintentionally your heart starts pounding, beating faster and dub-dab, dub-dab… oh my, you are out of space…. That someone has invaded your life! He/She is everywhere you are, in your mind, your thoughts, your sleep, your day and night. This is becoming fatal. You can die of a heart seizure, cardiac arrest, what? Your brain has stop some of its functions- your thinking ability has somewhat become paralyzed…he/she is here, there, anywhere, everywhere, e,i,e,i,o…….

But you couldn’t say it out, it is just you, thee, yourself and thou….thy all are within you…screaming, wailing … sign of schizophrenic is setting in. Never mind, the turmoil, storm raging inside you, you can survive. Only you know what is going on, if you are good at concealing your feeling and emotion. Fine.. you are just doing fine.

Somehow, you got to know more about him/her and all that you learnt is not that good, nothing wonderful, something bad, everything is not right… there will be no future of true happiness, everlasting love, romantic tales…. Sorry… fat chance, slim hope.. you just dream on! Yet the feeling stays…. There goes your heart, your limb, your mind, everything; at the sight of him/her. The dub-dab, dub-dab pounding of the heart does not slow down, they reacted the same way… Knock-knock, is there a brain inside your skull?
If the truth does not help overcome your feeling towards someone, what would?

I just don’t understand people. What more if they come and confide to you and asked for opinion… Huh, honestly I don’t! You were there talking and listening to an unwise friend when the monkey suddenly decided that walking in front of us is the best way to get to his car which was way behind us…. !!! Oh my, he knew, you are crazy over him…. Ssoo sorry, you solve your problem.. I m leaving!