heart and liver

Banyak betul perkara yang nak di tulis tapi tak tahu macam mana nak tulis. Macam mana nak mula, dari mana nak mula, from which angle, bla blab la..... confuse! Okay lets talk about matters of the heart. Why heart? I don’t know. Maybe because, if we were to talk about our looks, I have nothing to say. Nothing extraordinary about my face. I have a pair of eyes, one malay nose, a big mouth (literally), the usual stuff. If we were to talk about career, I love my job but don’t feel like discussing it now.
Ah heck, I’m writing, so I can write whatever I like.

What about the heart? Everyone has a heart, naturally. Do we know how our hearts looked like? Or do we really know the function of our heart? Apart from the dub-dab, dub-dab… is there anything else we need to know about our heart? Not sure. We are talking about the heart as in heart yea.. the one that breaks(figuratively), the one that pounds faster when we are excited, the one that beats harder when we are angry……

There’s so many ways we use the word heart. Heartthrob refers to someone you are attracted to, heart broken when you are frustrated, hearty refers to something good or sincerity. Lets forget heart attack and heart failure… no good eeh! The thing is, sometimes we couldn’t see it but we feel it, the pain in our hearts when it breaks, when we are saddened over something. It is difficult to explain but the pain is there. And then there are times when we couldn’t explain the beat of the heart, when we are nervous or excited, adrenalin pumps in and causes the heart to beat faster.

And then the occasion when the heart decides to fall in and out of love. Do we have any control over it? Kata orang dari mata jatuh ke hati. Tapi macam mana dengan keadaan bila kita tak berapa sangatlah minat apa yang kita lihat, hati tetap jugak terkenang-kenang? Payah ni nak explain. Kita boleh kata kita suka orang yang tinggi, kulit cerah, suara macho, ini itu, begini begitu, tapi kita jumpa orang yang sama tinggi je dengan kita entah rendah sikit, kulit gelap, gemuk, suara macam itik angsa… kita jadi tak lena tidur. Kalau tidur pun mimpi dia jugak. Kalau makan, nampak muka gelap dan gemuk dalam pinggan kita. Macam mana tu?

Then there were time when we were head over heels in love with someone, we say we will be forever till death do us part. Tup-tup, berubah hati jadi bosan, menyampah, jemu. Kalau dulu dialah segala-galanya, sekarang dia tak ada makna? Macam mana tu? Teringat pulak kenalan yang kata dia minat lelaki yang berbulu dada, sebab dia dah jatuh hati kat orang tu,dan entah macam mana (kita sungguh-sungguh tak tahu) dia nampak dada orang tu berbulu, dia pun cakap la macam tu. Walhal dulu dia pernah kata dia geli orang banyak bulu badan ni... eei,eei....

Tu macam mana nak terangkan? Kita percaya pada kuasa yang memegang hati. Banyak benda yang diluar kawalan kita. Sebab tu la kita tak berani nak cakap lepas. Mana la tahu kan kalau kita jatuh syok kat orang yang kita tak berapa nak minat. Payah jugak ni. Kalau kita kata tak minat orang banyak bulu macam kawan kita, tiba-tiba tersesat ke Planet of the Apes, orang tapi macam beruk berbulu aje yang ada, susah nak buat pilihan...eei...eei...

Apapun sebenarnya memang kita tak dapat nak compare manusia dari rupa paras, harta benda, ilmu pengetahuan tapi nilainya pada hati budi kan? Hati itulah yang membentuk perwatakan dan melahirkan tingkahlaku ( ada jugak yang hipokrit- hati lain, cakap lain) dan insyaAllah boleh kita bezakan yang suci hati, yang baik hati, yang hati-hati dengan yang hati mati, hati berdaki, hati dengki......

Alamak hati tu liver tau, jantung tu heart.... kita berentilah dulu... eei...eei...